New year, new me!
LOL just kidding but I bet you saw that getting thrown about A LOT so I’ll save you the time of having to see that again. Instead I’m going more along the lines of: new year, same me just hoping and praying that I don’t do the same dumb shit that I did last year. So this post was supposed to come out a lot sooner than 13 days into 2018 but better late than never right?
I feel like I’m more focused than ever and for the first time I know what kind of person I want to be. I know that sounds completely weird and creepy as fuck but give me a second to explain. It has taken me almost 25 years…I REPEAT, almost 25 years to come out of my shell and for people to see the “real me” you could say. Well the version of me that my family have to deal with on a daily basis. The Rhea that enters her house without fail screaming Adele’s “Hello” like her life depends on it or the Rhea that annoys the shit out of everyone with her quirky and weird personality. That kind of Rhea, only a few people get to see. To those of you who don’t see that side of me, I’ve built up somewhat of a reputation for myself, one that has been used against me time and time again. I’m sure you can guess. It’s the quiet, timid, shy and incredibly introverted version of me, who lacks the confidence to do anything.
It’s literally gotten me nowhere in life so instead I’ve made the conscious decision to change that. Right now, I feel like I know what I want to achieve this year and what I want to work towards. With that being said, 13 days into 2018 and I’ve experienced a whirlwind of emotions. I’m not even being dramatic. Fortunately I’ve had a bit of a game changer thrown my way and the rest of my 2018 is looking a lot brighter than the pessimist in me had anticipated. When I mean game changer, I can actually tick this one off my bucket list. I’ve been given a new beginning that I’ve so desperately needed and it couldn’t have been timed anymore perfectly. It’s taken me a while to accept this but I’ve come to learn that timing is everything. I’m a great believer in things happening for a reason, so if it’s your time it’ll happen for you. Just trust the process.
I make goals and set myself challenges every year because who doesn’t love a good challenge?
When I set my mind to things I more or less pull through with it, unless it’s something that scares me or makes me want to throw my body out of the window and hide in a ditch somewhere. Yes – that’s BASICALLY how last years goals made me feel. I achieved 5/10 of the things on my list. Maybe I pushed myself a little too hard because realistically, I wasn’t ready for half of those things.
Readiness – a factor that the small spontaneous but ever so evident part of me failed to take into consideration. I’m all for throwing myself into situations but it has to be realistic.
Instead I thought I’d keep things a little broad this year and to just see what happens:
1) Stop doubting yourself and realise your self-worth
2) Be as confident as you can be
3) Be physically stronger
4) Gain some independence
5) Be adventurous and travel more
6) Work hard in making better blog content and get your work out there
7) Allow yourself to have fun once in a while
8) Stop comparing yourself to others
9) Be kind to yourself and give yourself some slack
10) Be bold
As daunting as the year is looking for me, I cannot for the life of me wait to see what other good things are ahead. In the words of my girl Tay Tay:
“Are you ready for it?” – Yes, yes I am.
Lots of love,